Okey here we go!

I really don't know what to write. I've been here a couple of times now and not once have I actually had that feeling, the connection between my mind and my fingers, you know the feeling you get when you put your fingers on the keyboard and it all just goes on from there. But what the heck, I promised myself to give it a try, can be a good way of expressing yourself.

Before I even start I must say that the things I will write about can be real, storytelling or just thoughts that pop up in my head. Maybe not always fully understanding and coherent but hey it's my blog and I can do whatever I want with it right? No seriously sorry if it's difficult sometimes to keep up with.

What does it mean when you say I speak from my heart?

I want to be the person who belive in trust, when somebody tells me something, anything, I want to belive that this person is telling the truth. Like for example, when you say you love me, then you do. You are speaking from your heart. Then why is it that whenever I hear it I always have it in my mind that, wonder if it's really true? Is there something wrong with me or am I just protecting myself in a way?

Let's say that you are so inlove with someone that your whole world becomes this person. Everything revolves around this person. The first and the last thing you think about when you wake up and go to sleep. When do you really know if you love this person, and is it Love? Ýou say you die for me but do you really? No but your heart is telling you that the feelings you have are so strong that you could.

You say you miss me, and that you wanna spend every single sec with me, seriously? I dont think so, I feel the same, but we all, and I mean ALL need our moments for ourselves or else we go bonkers.

I tell you that it's only you I wanna be with, that my heart is aching for you, missing you when you not with. How do you know that I'm telling the truth? I mean well let's say that I do all this for you but how will you know if I dont show it?

Here's the thing, I'm not being bitter right now. I'm just trying in my own little way to convince my head, my heart and me that sometimes it can be hard to really show the things you are saying and that's okay. As long as you atleast show the person that he/she means something to you. You dont have to die for someone to show that you care, not even tell that one that you love everyday. There are these little things we do for one another without even thinking about them that really shows that we care and do love eachother.

And with that said, I really think that it is the little things we do or say that makes it all special. Makes me and you special. When we want to be dreamers we dream and we don't let anybody ruin that. I know, and I will live in my dream and be happy. For all that it's worth I know I have my heart in the right place.

Over and out! For now=)